É-MIGRÉ, Painting, Shirin Gallery, 2015
For this collection I was primarily inspired by my own immigration process and story. At the time, I was questioning why I was leaving Tehran, Iran, even though I knew my daughter would have a better future. Also, my husband’s family was in Toronto so it seemed like a logical decision. However, I had all of these trepidations and wanted my paintings to portray a fragile woman falling from the sky onto a car. In my mind, Iran was my heaven and leaving everything behind felt like an accidental journey. I knew that entering an unknown future in a foreign land would be difficult. Ultimately I wanted my work to reflect a woman’s a deadly decision. I took countless pictures of myself screaming/falling down a set of stairs or on top of a mattress. In a way it was a form of performance art that captured an authentic frame of mind and a raw wounded soul. I was also inspired by a true event. There is a picture of a young woman named Evelyn who committed suicide in 1947. A young photography student named Robert Wiles took this picture and it was published in LIFE magazine. It was shocking and I was moved by it. Also, taking pictures of myself for the paintings as I was falling, sweating, screaming, was a very cathartic experience for me.